O C T O B E R

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1.
02:50
knowing nothing, one teaches through love knowing nothing, one teaches through terror this small grain will be flesh two worlds that surface seldom part one is alone then such a man strikes at the distance the dog still rears its head in hearing we are still snake bodies, bellied in, hunger-stretched i saw worlds coil in light the heart of grass dense beneath me i saw hands move about me as the eye's blankness grew knowing nothing, one teaches through love knowing nothing, one teaches through terror
2.
was a window open? is a storm in the house? let be, let be. are there hands on the window? let be, let be. they're only branches lifting themselves against the immensity are there dreams beneath the bed? let be, let be. they're only airplanes made of glass and gold moving like bees they've forgotten how to speak after thousands of years of sleeping in the earth let be, let be. was a window open? is a storm in the house? let be, let be.
3.
01:56
father mine father time hands filtered hands flattened sweeping the floor weeping the poor not rooted in fits of love and unfit to measure nothing we hold gives us its name we fall from time to time i pray God forgive me
4.
consider the world consider the earth sun's wintered chalks piled and scattered this i have chosen this i have chosen
5.
all the love you gave all the words you said like a tongue that summer had forgotten bleeding, when the earth needs rain never mind those games they're playing darkening out what small sky's remaining
6.
When I knew you, you'd walked right out of darkness When I said your name, we were children of the shadows. When I knew you, you'd walked right out of darkness When I said your name, we were children of the morning. by myrrha jamil
7.
all the love you gave all the love you gave loosened the wall the way home has fallen sad all the love you gave, shaking the wall
8.
01:03
9.
01:09
as the child grows, grows, demands love, gathers force up the stairs hides almost herself the atmosphere above seems slower not the hurry of guilt from below driven less by desire than life driven less by water than thirst
10.
on the roads we sat and wept growing lighter with the loss of moisture void, black and pulsing ah, aggressive beasts covered with a multitude of eyes blanketing many fields, galloping wedged in half-human formations on edges of lakes on fleshes of mountains, the angels came
11.
there were other signs though that death had wooed us by water wooed us by land, among the pines an uncurled mouth lay swollen rearing in polluted air birth not death is the hard loss I know: I also left a skin there
12.
01:11
this you may have heard in the early night: from under the wolves, the pilgrim comes from under this skin in the morning light you were walking the banks among the bones the heart of the river was only a stone
13.
03:06
i must go with no other to the land of little rain, to the season of passing- here you've buried me dark and bitter it's become, stumbling down the stairs, our clothes undone dashing like bulls feet first from the pit hands in and sensing the end pausing beneath and lifting my head
14.
a simple beast, here it lied she loved too much in all her strength stretched out and broken down and now the rags fill my eyes and in leaving I am undone and in the end I'm not the lucky one
15.
a heaviness in front in back you surrender yourself to an instant of beauty the old story goes on and on: you were never anywhere but here I lose myself I exaggerate mine is the loss
16.
00:19
was a window open? is a storm in the house? let be let believe
17.
01:08
18.
as the child grows, grows, demands love, gathers force up the stairs hides almost herself the atmosphere above seems slower not the hurry of guilt from below driven less by water than thirst driven less by desire than life
19.
often of my orchards often of my birds wintering with bruises given me to reflect often of my morning often of my night wintering with bruises given me to silence often of my orchards often my birds
20.
00:58
and in the end it's all a dream after the fall we're safe again

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THERE'S A MISTAKE IN "all the love you gave"
BUT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT

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released October 18, 2017

cover/cover painting by Paul Sutfin

music written, performed, recorded, "produced", by Paul Sutfin on
piano, trumpet, organ, and synth

Oct-Nov. 2016.
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